• Unreality

    The room is filled. I am filled. With ambiance. With ethereal waves. Sound bits. Visual sound. Sluggish motion. Sharp colours merging. Playing with gravity. Pulsating. Seeping through air molecules. Contaminating them. But then they give in. They let the unreality engulf them. Like crashing waves. So tall that they tower over you. Surround you. Blue with foaming whiteness. Ear drums become dense. Booming filling your head through your ears. So full and so close but a distance also. An unreality. The waves surround you. And then it hits. Crashes. Becomes darker blue. Deep blue. Underwater sound. Engulfed.

    Waking imagination is subordinate to dreaming. Lucid dreaming joins the two. The realness of dreaming and the consciousness of waking. The world is in cartoon motion. The happiest I have ever felt. Cobbled streets at dusk in misty lamplight and whistling cold lay beyond the curtains and walls. It’s the wrong room. A memory. Consciousness of the unreality steals the moment. Panic that it will be lost. I don’t want to loose this which I love. This which I long for every moment of every day. Film will not satisfy it. Story will not quench my longing. And the fantasy will not be real. It’s the wrong room. Bring back the one I love.

    Weaving smoke flowing upwards. Appears in front of my face. The pipe becomes a boat and the sea surrounds me again. I am above the water. Sailing. You race towards me. I am overcome. I am come. This is it. I am back. I am real. This is the real I love. Back and forth. I am laughing. I have no restraint. There is no restraint. No one would restrain, would want to restrain or would restrain you. I am laughing. Back and forth in bliss. This is the truth is seek. For true truth to evanesce and the truth I seek to settle in its place. This is not its place.

    There is no other place. It’s the wrong room. Consciousness is fatal. My happiness at risk. Do not let it fade. My imagination is not strong enough. My emotion’s not real enough. It is for lack of real experience, lacking experience of my own that I ask the world to evanesce and lay back in euphoria. You have not entered my life yet. I have not met you. You exist on film and I fear for your existence. I have no truth if you are just a fantasy. No truth worth living. That is brutality. Cynicism. Cold living. If I accept it I can live. Happily even. But I will not accept it. It’s the wrong room and I will have euphoria. The unreality will become reality.

    It’s the wrong room. Please oh please…please let the unreality become r

  • Paradise in the present

    Why do we hold a polarized view of heaven and hell? When we are young the world is simplified. But this is for the sake of learning. There comes a time for everyone when life becomes more complicated than that. No one person is good or bad. There comes a time when the good people do bad things; when your best friend lets you down for someone else; when someone you know and love changes for better, for worse or simple for change. You no longer love or hate anyone. The school bully is not just a bully just as you are not just anything.

    Perhaps these people change or perhaps we grow wiser in our understanding of why they are as they are and through this understanding change again. The bully is not just the bully. We do not simply hate the bully. We feel sorry for the bully. We want to help the bully. We understand why the bully is the way he is. We no longer simply love and hate: we like and dislike to varying and altering degrees.

    And with this new understanding that the world is not black and white the idea of good and bad itself becomes meaningless. I am not good such that this means I am not also bad. I am grey. I am flawed. I am human. But if I am rational I am saved. If my emotions run free and unopposed I am lost. But if I am rational I am saved. The world is saved. Existence is saved to continue, and develop, and evolve…for the better.

    So why do we still hold a polarized view of heaven and hell? If good men can do bad things where is the cut off point for entrance to heaven and hell? The most good and the least good heaven worthy men will be far removed. If in the afterlife we are the same selves that we are in this life then the afterlife will be little better than this life for we will be the same people; or else it becomes a very exclusive club from which many good(ish) men must be excluded.

    This world, this life is not black and white so why would another world or another life not be grey as well. At least why assume that it isn’t. Why would we want it to be for if it is it is an exclusive club to which so many loved ones will not enter?

    Let us not ruin this life by always dreaming of a paradisiacal afterlife. Let us live life when it is supposed to be lived, on earth, today and in the present. Let us strive to make this world better not to save souls eternally and make them ripe for an exclusive heaven but to make this earth and the fleeting lives lived on it as paradisiacal as possible. Let us not think that there is no hope or that there must be another realm of existence because this one often falls short. Let us assume that if we think this realm falls short and that if we want to change it then it can be changed.

    There is hope and meaning to life even if there is no promise of afterlife; it’s just shorter so why not make it all the richer for it.

  • When I became an Atheist

    Here's a haiku poem i wrote as part of a creative writing module I took during the third year of my degree.

    This flower decays
    a yesterday transparent
    murky now, Translucent

    Unclean: freedom gained
    in the knowledge of my loss
    grieving paradox

    That sky made by God
    lit fire in this hopeful heart
    now lost: the Atheist’s truth

    This flower decays
    death is death, we lose our lot
    but gain back this earth

    A new found struggle
    steeped in the heroic rise
    and fall, redemption

    Grant peace unto earth
    men, still fight for your fellow
    with crimson un-changed

    This flower decays
    I see now it lived before
    no death can take it

    Time ever present
    ever hopeful, ever here

  • Democracy: power to the people or power to the educated people?

    According to Plato’s Republic society should be run by the philosophers, or at least academics and intellectuals as opposed to war lords or the democratic masses. And indeed there is an extent to which this has been the case throughout the ages. Rome was run by the politician and indeed the kings of old had a body of advisers to aid them in social matters or to inform them of the wider consequences and repercussions to their actions. Moreover, rule by heritage has, to a large extent, become extinct from today’s world. But what of the democratic masses? How strong should their voice be alongside the intellectual elite? To what extent should politicians listen to the public? To what extent should we be democratic?

    The question of most fundamental importance in this debate is whether anyone, apart from oneself, can know what is best for one. In the time of Plato and indeed until relatively recently the education of the masses had been ignored. So it fell to the educated to rule. This makes perfect sense for I, a reasonably well educated man, would not think to advise anyone on how to build a bridge so why would someone totally uneducated in the social demographic be obliged to, or even want, have a say in how many houses get built, or where they get built? Consider the NHS. I’m sure we’ve all heard people complaining about its inefficiency, about waiting times etc. Now, I’m not saying that we should not complain, but I, again a reasonably well educated person, am saying that I do not presume currently to hold enough relevant knowledge to suggest viable solutions. This is not to say that I think one should not raise one’s voice to highlight the problems and protest if one’s voice is not met with some sort of positive response but that is all I will do. I do not, in my protest, assume that I have any further right to suggest how the NHS is to solve its problems. Of course I have the choice, opportunity and right to become an authority on the NHS and the running of public enterprise. I could go on a course, I could read all the news and all the published reports and, that completed, be at a level where I may advise. But, short of undertaking such specific education, I have to be willing to put the responsibility into someone else’s hands; someone who is relevantly educated and hope they will be capable. However I do not presume that someone well educated will be faultless, make only the correct decisions or be by any means perfect, but they do know more than me and until I know more my voice on the topic is comparatively small.

    If everyone new every fact about every issue then it would be right to have a referendum on every issue. However this simply is not feasible. Most people have full time jobs in a specific area in which they become experts and simply do not have the time to become experts on all areas relevant to all social policy. Therefore, short of having time to become experts, they must put the power into someone else’s hands and hope that they use it well.

    The more important the issue however the more obliged I think people are to make themselves aware of all the facts and share their opinions. For it has long been said that where power corrupt, absolute power does so absolutely. So we cannot assume that those in power will always be right, or are not subject to review and challenge. Just as God, if he existed, would not be subject to serious questioning. But in areas of less epic repercussions; in areas of social policy and even much foreign policy it is, and can only practically be, for those with in depth knowledge on a subject to make decisions (it is for others to review those decisions and keep politician’s power in check).

    So is it true that someone other than one can know what is best for one? Well, yes when one does not know all the relevant information.

    As a final example consider that the law in this country is that the motorway speed limit is 70mph. However it is possible that were a referendum given tomorrow perhaps the majority would opt to raise it to 80mph. However were it to then be revealed the following day that a 10mph increase in the speed limit would result in 200% more road related deaths the people would, I am sure, retract their vote and change their opinion. Now, the average person does not have time to become knowledgeable of all the facts of all the issues so cannot always know what is best for them; what they would choose if they knew all the facts; that they would not have voted for the speed limit increase had they know of its consequences. Still, it is true I think that if voters knew all the relevant facts and the vast majority simply did not care about the 200% increase in death rate so still voted for the speed limit change the referendum would RIGHTLY pass: the majority, in full knowledge of all the facts and consequences, would know what they want (whatever that may be.) What is best for one is what one wants for one's self when one posses all the relevant facts.

    Democratic power to the educated people. The right to education for all. Unlimited power to no-one.

  • Matter over mind: the organic machine

    I hold an irrational feeling. I know I can control that feeling such that I prevent myself from acting upon it. I can choose to think and act rationally. But I cannot stop that feeling.

    I find myself in a state of mind in which I do not want to be. But what control do I have over it. What control do I really have over anything? Over my mind? Over my body? Over the course of my life? If you think about it we are all, after all, just machines. Vastly complex organic machines born as a reaction to some past action so that all action is simply reaction. A reaction to which one often thinks one has the power to cause. Pick a moment in time. There are arrayed before you at that specific moment an infinite number of possible courses of action, possible causes of your future actions. This is called choice. It is what we believe gives us free will. But this is an illusion. I never really have a choice. The cause I choose or the reaction I desire is limited to the one that I in fact take. If I could ever return to a specific moment in the past and in that moment be exactly the same person I was when first I lived it, with no hindsight and no knowledge that I had ever lived it before, I could only ever make the same decision and choose the same path as I did the first time. To do otherwise, when all internal and external environments are the same is to admit that I act randomly. If the choice is to kill or be merciful and I chose to kill is it possible that, all things remaining constant, I could ever have chosen to be merciful? No, for my mind and body, being as they were in that moment of time, fused with my environment as it was at that time and reacted. This reaction, unless random, is determined to be the same every time. I have no free will. I am controlled by the material nature of my being. I am determined.

    I find myself in a state of mind in which I do not want to be. To act or not act upon this state of mind would be a matter of will but however strong this is I cannot help but feel in this state of mind. It is often said that ‘mind over matter’ but more often than not the truth is ‘matter over mind’. When my body is tired, when I have a headache or when I am in physical pain my thoughts turn to madness. My mind is not strong enough that I do not feel angry even if it is strong enough to stop my actions betraying that anger. We are to such a great extent as mind only as we are as matter. The material imperfections of the bodies we inhabit influence our minds (who we are) in both subtle and unsubtle ways that are out of our control. Our bodies are imperfect and so our minds are destined to feel imperfect even when they can think perfectly. It would be, or perhaps is, a work of phenomenal art to exist such that our minds act independently at all times from the influence of our bodies. So long as mind and body are mutually dependant I see no way that my mind can act perfectly for my body is destined to imperfection. I accept this fate.

  • Why do we assume that if there is a God that he is perfect?

    It is often assumed that if there is a God that he is perfect, faultless, all good and all powerful. So when a nice young man happened to come across him whilst taking a walk he asked: ‘God why do you allow cancerous disease in the world.’ To which God replied

    ‘I do not allow it. I simply do not have the power to stop it. It is either a fault in my design to which I do not yet have the knowledge to correct or it is an inevitable by-product of the process of human creation just as carbon dioxide and other gases are unavoidable by-products of various chemical reactions. These gases are often detrimental or have no effect. But no one assumes that they serve such purposes, only that they have that function. Don’t be so hard on me. I am limited by my knowledge and the stretch of my innate faculties just as you are. You know, you have very high standards of me. You put me up on a pedestal that is really just too hard to stand on. I am not all powerful you know. Heck! Why would I be? You’re not. Please stop worshipping me. I’m as flawed as the next being, I just happen to be a bit more intelligent than you.’

    We assume God is perfect because we created him to be so. God is our answer to material problems to which we cannot see the material solutions. So he has to be perfect or else he can’t solve all the problems we want him to solve. And if he can’t do that then we might just as well have not made him up.

  • The world is not going down hill but slowly struggling up hill

    ‘The future will be devoted not to great exhilarating struggles over ideas but rather to resolving mundane economic and technical problems…it will all be rather boring’ Clash of Civilisations p. 31

    How passionate are we in the western world? How many things are there for us to protest about, to get really fired up about? When I studied modern history and the world wars of the 20th century I was taught that the people of Britain united against her common enemy, that people became comrades at home, supporting her troops abroad. When the slave trade was at its height I believe people were passionately angry with the people and the politicians that condoned it.

    Have we really got the same kind of struggles to get passionate about in today’s society? Well I think problems such as starvation and Aids in Africa are on a par, but what I want to focus on here is why the INTERNAL SOCIAL STRUGGLES of modern developed societies do not seem to have the pressing impact, or at least why they should not.

    Well, regarding bad politicians and bad social policy, it seems to me that the world we live in today just isn’t as black and white as they world of yesterday. We’ve got it pretty good in our country. So the NHS isn’t perfect, so taxes are high. But at least we have an NHS and at least our taxes do more than line the pockets of our feudal lords whose bellies grew from the fruits of their starving tenants labour. People just don’t have a right to be so cynical about the state of our standard of living. Our society is getting better in so many ways. Of course we should protest when policy is failing and when changes need to be made, but let us not loose sight of the good whilst doing so. We have an NHS that is far better than any this country has had before, that is improving at some rate, and that is infinitely better than vast amounts of the rest of the world. Stop complaining so passionately about everything. Stop saying the world is getting worse and worse and start saying lets make the world better and better and better.

    The world is not going down hill but slowly struggling up hill. I once had a Jehovah’s Witness couple come to my door and decided against my better judgement (maybe I had been called out of bed at one in the afternoon) to hear what they had to say. They read me a passage from the book of revelations to which the general gist was that the world would end when man turns against man, when nations war against their neighbours, when man’s selfishness and greed is ever evident around us. They then said to me ‘don’t you think this description sounds a lot like the world we live in today’ and implied I should prepare for the second coming of the Lord and try to make my peace with God before he came. Now, I admit that my Biblical and historical knowledge is by no means exhaustive or faultless but from what I remember of the times of Abraham, Noah, Jesus, the ancient Greeks etc. the description given to me by that very polite couple is as true of today’s world as is was of those world of millennia past. So, should I really think that the world is coming to an end within my lifetime? Is the world really getting worse and worse and worse? The hearts of many men have been selfish since the dawn of time and they are no more selfish now than they were then. The world described in revelation is no worse than the world described in the four Gospels of the New Testament. The world is not going down hill but slowly struggling up hill, trying to get better.

    The above was not a specific attack upon Christian belief but simply an apt example of a commonly held opinion that the world is now worse than it has ever been. The present is always more vivid than the past for we are experiencing it at first hand. That makes it more vivid, not worse.

    At some point I think it possible that because the world IS getting better in many ways that the opening quote will one day be true not only for internal social concerns of the western world but be true of our relations with the entire world. In our society the struggle to make things better is making things better. Let us hope that the struggle to make the whole world better keeps making the world better until such time as there is no starvation or aids etc. in the world.

  • Faith: why do people think that it is ok to have it?

    This way a reply to a thread you can find at https://www.blogger.com/comment.g?blogID=21219785&postID=643575316272638863&page=1

    I just did a quick search on the definition of faith and found two of interest:

    1. Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.
    2. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence.

    Taking these two definitions together, and adding what I deem to know about the concept of faith already, it seems that faith is 'a confident belief in something where that confidence does not rest on logical proof or material evidence'.

    Does this not seem irrational? Normal everyday beliefs are based on giving a positive credence value to a statement i.e. I am more than 50% sure of such and such based on the evidence readily available to me. The only evidence readily available to human beings is logical or material. Why on earth would someone hold a belief that they accept is under-evidenced.

    Ok, so maybe people like to go with gut feelings or their sensibilities cloud their judgement to think it’s acceptable to believe something when that belief is under-evidenced. Live and let live: let people have their own beliefs if it doesn't hurt anyone. Problem: religion does hurt people and it is the less fundamental religious middle class that provide a platform to prop up the more extreme fundamentalists.

    If something is false but harms no-one then so be it if someone is happy believing it. But if a belief is false and it does, at whatever level, instigate hurt in other human beings, then that belief is not acceptable.

    I anticipate that some may object that faith may describe beliefs based not on logical or material truths but on spiritual ones: spiritual evidence that outweighs the logical and material. But what is this spiritual evidence? How can we trust “spiritual” experiences? Surely if I was in a room and thought I saw a flying pink pig that no-one else could see, my first reaction is not to think that everyone else is mistaken but that I am; I would think, because what I am seeing (on one occasion which is not enough to base a strong belief) is out of the ordinary and defies the laws of everything I currently hold to know, that I am hallucinating.

    If I ever have a religious experience (actually I used to be religious and thought what I was experiencing was spiritual and divine) I will know (I now know of my feelings then) that it is more likely that the experience is not divine. The overwhelming presence of God that Christians claim to feel is common human chemical functions. When I hear certain pieces of music I may be moved, I may cry, I may be suddenly and overwhelmingly happy. When I have a belief that tells me there is hope against the backdrop of a brutal world and that tells me I am always loved and will never die my brain and body react in the same way as when I hear a moving piece of music. If a belief does not have to be true for someone to believe it then surely it does not have to be true for someone to feel the positive effects of that belief.

    Faith is irrational and dangerous. False beliefs that are, even only when misused, dangerous should not be maintained. Belief in God is a false belief. Belief in God is the cause of much pain and destruction. Therefore one should not hold a belief in God.

  • Black and White and Grey: The failure of absolutism and spiritualism to say anything necessary about society and morality

    There are too many scenarios in life and across time to have absolute principles. That is why rule utilitarianism fails as a coherent, or at any rate, practical doctrine. And if a principle, doctrine, way of life is unpractical or un-implementable, is it even theoretically sound? Of course if the world was in a state such that a doctrine could be implemented then it could be the right doctrine. But the important point is that the world is not such and such a way; it is the way it is and if a doctrine cannot fit into that then perhaps the doctrine is not right for the society in which it is presented.

    Of course this principle is not absolutist. If it were then people’s weakness to see or strive for change would prevent many beneficial advancements. It is not that a doctrine must easily fit into society but that it must be possible to fit it into society even through small steps. For example the total upheaval of the slave trade was difficult to accept because so much of societies economic prosperity depended on it; or at least the fat belies of the aristocracy did. Abolition however was implementable (this is clearly indisputable in hindsight because it was implemented) because it reflected the will of society as a whole. Society has a quieter voice at times than the ruling bodies, but great moments of change are, often, the result of general consensus. Perhaps Hitler’s Germany and Stalin’s Russia did not reflect world wide general consensus yet they flourished just as the slave trade did. But none of these ideologies lasted; they were overhauled by general consensus (perhaps a shifting general consensus or one that simple became apparent or eventually felt strongly enough to grow a voice).

    One also has to understand that extreme absolutism fails in practicality. If it were general consensus in Britain, for example, that it should be a communist state and this was considered some kind of divine absolute it would still not be right that Britain should become communist tomorrow (oh how its society would self destruct if it did). The change would have to be incremental. Hard absolutists in the time of slow change would surely cry out accusations of weak resolution and half-hearted policy: if something is right it is always right so if communism in Britain is right then it is right tomorrow. But this is false. The pre-Marxist utopians failed because they were concerned with the total upheaval and immediate replacement of society with a better way of life. But, as Marx argued, total upheaval ignores the root of any problem. Why was society in a mess? Whatever the specific reason, the general one surely stems from man and his relations. It seems quite plausible that were society to be totally up-heaved and replaced with a new system the same problems would begin to arise and cause the downfall of the new social order. The problem can never be ignored and go away and it can never be destroyed unless it destroys itself: the problem culminates and from that problem the solution becomes apparent.

    In this very way absolutism fails for it does not allow that the best solution grows in the womb of its correlating problem. After all, man believes in the divine and in salvation through the spiritual because to them no material solution is apparent or readily forthcoming. People lose hope that their troubles will ever subside and so they look outside of themselves, and the society which gives birth to its problems, for a solution. Hence God is created to i) solve problems to which we cannot presently see the material solution ii) solve problems to which there are no material solutions: we are too weak to accept fatal truths so we create false truths to cover up our fears. This kind of belief in God is synonymous with death. One is killing their rational, strong-willed self, in order to hide from reality. They embrace false hope. They are more interested in feeling safe and comfortable than in knowing the hard truth. The truth that the harder the problem the harder the true (material) solution will be. Salvation through God is the easy solution, the weak solution. Of course this is true. Why would anyone suppose that a material problem can only have an immaterial (spiritual) solution? Christians believe that we, man, are to blame for the world’s problems. Of course we are. But if we cause the problem surely it is we, man, that must solve the problem. Why would the best solution to a man made problem be a spiritual solution?

    So, absolutism fails because it sees the world in black and white. God is a spiritual black and white solution to a material grey problem. There are just too many scenarios in life for one to be an absolutist. Moral relativism succeeds where absolutism fails. However, it is often argued that even if one cannot possibly be absolutist about everything that there are some core, underlying universal moral absolutes that everyone adheres to. The Ten Commandments is the classic example. Taken at face value this is a very appealing idea but on closer inspection one has to wonder whether the commandments really give society anything of practical value. For example, what value does the commandment ‘Do not murder’ really give? When is a scenario ever black and white enough that one can employ this absolute in their reasoning to act one way or the other? What is murder? Killing on a battle field surely isn’t it. Killing in self-defence isn’t it. These are things most societies can accept are condonable; they are the grey areas of life to which the commandment helps us in no way whatsoever. Perhaps the black and white scenario to which the commandment gives us some value is what we would call ‘cold blooded murder’. But this commandment doesn’t have to come from God and it certainly doesn’t have to be an absolute because it is, surely, some sort of genetic or inherent predisposition; some raw aspect of human nature that just is. Even if it were socially constructed over millennia it would be a culmination of other more primitive natural human instincts such as desire for safety and the need for social interaction which can only be sustained by trust. Cold blooded murder violates these basic instincts. ‘Cold blooded murder is wrong’ does not have to be an absolute because it will never, I would imagine, be the case that a democratic majority will agree that murder could be widely acceptable. It would be in no society’s interest (especially given all we know about human nature and the different systems of thousands of years of different societies) for cold blooded murder to be an absolute.

    So how is it that the Ten Commandments or even the Bible or Quran in their entireties give us good absolute ways to live our lives. There are just so few scenarios where a de-contextualised set of rules can apply in any valuable way. Life is grey and black and white absolutes just cannot offer compatible solutions to grey problems. The general message of the Bible gives us nothing that natural human instincts cannot give us apart from a need to love God with all your heart and soul, but I have already explained how God is an unsatisfactory spiritual solution to difficult material problems.

    So absolutism, theism and deism i) offer the same solutions to problems that have solutions explicable in corresponding un-spiritual terms (do not commit cold blooded murder) ii) offer weak and/or unnecessary spiritual solutions to man made material problems.

    Finally a quick point to clarify against potential objection to the above. Grey areas does not mean some evil pragmatism that accepts that, because we all give into sinful temptation, it is irrelevant to talk about pure and good absolutism i.e. humanity are so happy being “sinful” that there’s just no point in trying to implement good absolutes. I explained above that something being hard to implement does not make something wrong to implement, it is just that it takes time and a practical and pragmatic approach. So by stating that black and white absolutism is an incompatible doctrine with reality because reality is grey I am not suggesting that ‘grey areas’ are synonymous with ‘man’s imperfections’ e.g. being morally grey such as being selfish sometimes because life is hard. Grey areas means that real life scenarios are never so simplistic that a short set of absolute rules can guide one in any valuable way as to how they should act. Scenarios are so varied and so complex that no rule corresponds even nearly perfectly to it. And as stated before even if such a set of rules can give an overall guiding influence or general message these influences are generally inherent in human nature and do not need to be dictated or controlled by a more divine being than ourselves just to keep order. It is not man’s imperfection that leads him to think of the world as grey but man’s imperfection that leads him to think of the world as black and white. We do in fact keep pretty good order in the world despite religious dogma and absolutism never because of it.

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